The Love That Changes Us

"Don't marry your lover, but marry your best friend" -Myles Munroe

Love and romance. Today, those two different things that are always interpreted at the same terms. People believe in love at the first sight. Hmm.. Really? How can you love someone you just met? What if he is a playboy? What if she is a hypocrite? Well, we do need time to know each other before we tied in a relationship. But, what the world teaches us today? "Oh don't worry, as long as you find a good guy/lady, you will be fine." "Find a beautiful/handsome person who makes you proud when you walk together." DUH! How can you say that this person is more beautiful/handsome than that person? How do you know that this good guy/lady is nicer than others? How do we love them if we don't know them? Knowing each other is not only knowing their name, address, telephone number, and date of birth. It is waaaaaayyyyyy deeper than that. There's many things we need to learn before we are committed in a relationship. Oh well, I'm off.. Let's back on the topic.. hahaha..


Personally, love is when we do anything for the goodness of our lover, and romance is when we do something in order to fulfill our desire. Love will last forever in good and bad situation, but not romance. We will not have any desire to give our spouse surprise when we face a circumstance, will you? Love is not a feeling.. and it will not come at the beginning of a relationship; yet, love comes softly :)  As written in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8..

Love is patient, love is kind. 

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, 

it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. 

But where there are prophecies, they will cease; 

where there are tongues, they will be stilled; 

where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

"But.. who has that kind of love? That such of love doesn't exist; it is just too perfect!" Yes, it is somewhat true. That kind of love doesn't exist in this world, and it is too perfect to be existed. And the only One who has it is Jesus. There is no other person who love us like Jesus does. His love is unconditional and unfailing. It doesn't matter who we are, Jesus still loves us. I can't imagine how my life runs without Him. I don't know where I ended up to. His love is just soooo amazing for me. It is indescribable!

I was an ordinary Christian girl who read Bible daily but received nothing. Haha.. I didn't know that worship and pray will make a breakthrough. I did all of those "Christian routine" because I was born and raised in a Christian family. That's it! My Dad is Christian, and my Mom was a Catholic. So, I was expected to follow them; but I just didn't know what the point was. Haha.. I was satisfied with with my spiritual life, and had no desire to go deeper. As long as I read Bible everyday, I would be fine. But after years, I realized that Christian life waaaayyyy deeper than that. I do have a almighty God who loves me so much, and He is alive! I still read Bible, worship and pray; but it never be the same like before. 

The first time I felt His presence was when I had my national final exam in my junior high school--it was equal to CASHEE in California, the United States. I was very stressful about the material; the more I studied, the more I forgot. At the night before the exam, I was studying in tears.. I just couldn't bear it. I was very exhausted. On that moment, I was listening a Christian radio  when I studied. I didn't even listened to it, I was just turned it on to make "noise" so I didn't feel alone. And then, the radio played a song "Allahku Yang Setia" that means You are my faithful God. When I heard that song, I cried so hard because He spoke to me through that song. He comforted me, and He reminded me that I was studying hard all by myself. I had never invited Him to blessed me. He said to me not to be afraid of what I faced tomorrow because He would give me a victory. On that time, I just couldn't help my tears. I only could say, "forgive me My Lord, I have been lost this days. Now I surrender all to You, I'm done with it.." Amazingly, after that short prayer I felt peaceeeee.. I was very confident facing my exam. And yes, I passed! Yay.. :p

After that very first moment with Him, He started to mold me more and more. Many things happened, until someday I wanted to be committed to be a Christian. FYI, I was born in a Christian family, but I was not baptized yet :)  Hence, I asked my Mom to get permission, and her answer was shocking me. My "proposal" was denied! hehe.. The reason was I was too young, so I might have not think it deeply; hence, I might be hard to keep my commitment. On that moment, I just obeyed her, and had nothing to say. I was not really sure that I could keep my commitment to Him. I just prayed, and told Him how I wanted to be baptized. Finally, one day, my Mom asked me, "do you want to be baptized?" I was like, "what did you say Mom? Am I dreaming?" hahaha.. I had been waited to His time for four years! But He heard my prayer! I was overjoyed back then.. hehe..

Since then, He mold me more and more. He burns me on the fire hotter and hotter. And yes, until now, He is still working on me so hard.. Haha.. Sometimes I just want to give up, but He comes and comfort me. He convinced me that He will never ever leave me; He promised that He will come where ever I am. Oh Lord.. I just can't imagine how my life will be without You.. I can't describe Him in word. He just too awesome, too great, too almighty, too much for everything! He has been waiting for me to say "yes" to His calling.. Patiently.. And He never forced me to do this and that because He loves me soo muchhh.. He will offer His plan and love to me, but it is all my choice. It will be good for me if I accept His "offer", but once again He gives the the free will to choose.


I'm speechless now.. Totally speechless.. He is my super best friend, He is my Father, He is my everything. Nothing and no one can change His place. He loves me sooo muchh, but what about me? I can't love Him the same way He loves me.. But He still loves me! He is God, the King of kings, the creator of this universe, and He loves me! Whoaaaaa.. What an honor!!!! And the good news is He is not only love me, but He loves you too! That's the Love that changed me.. That's the Love that changes us! :)   Let's share how He has been working on you! Be blessed.. Jesus loves you!